my smile is weird. yes, weird! why you ask? because i have my terrible buck teeth nearly tucked behind my bottom teeth just so they won’t look like they stick out so much. i was a shy kid... the kind of kid that always wished they could figure out how “those people” - like her sister - could just walk right up and talk to anyone. around people i was comfortable with i was silly and spunky but whenever i was around bigger groups or new people, i was a wall flower. so much so that in 9th grade a girl who i had gone to school with since kindergarten asked if i was a new student. why did she ask me that? i have my theories... something happened in me... i’m not exactly sure of the date, but it happened sometime during seventh grade. i decided i was not going to be shy anymore. seems now like a funny decision for a kid to make, but i did. and from that day forward i made conscious efforts to be outgoing and friendly around anyone. now, this does NOT come naturally to some... and i was one of those “some”! since i was not naturally outgoing, i did not naturally self-regulate my outgoing-ness. i was over the top... way over... and to their credit my parents did not send me to a far away land during this time. it took a few years to come back to reality from “over the top,” but i did make the trip back. over time i learned how to be me, in front of others, not someone else. slowly those little voices that shouted out to me to sit back in the corner with your big buck teeth grew quieter. i’m sure the braces had a little something to do with that, but i know quite well that sometimes those voices are louder than reality. i still wear my heart on my sleeves a lot of the time, and my stomach gets butterflies when i walk into a room full of strangers, but i’ve managed to learn how to manage those feelings, and to let me shine through the curtain of self-doubt i hid behind for so many years. and i am a happier me.
Supplies: Blue patterned paper: Keri Schueller, Legacy Kit, scrapgirls.com; Black patterned paper and frame: Rhonna Farrer, Black Eyed Peas Kit and Snap Shot Frames Kit, twopeasinabucket.com; “Really” and edging brush: Katie Pertiet, Prompted Journalers Kit and Stamped Blocks Kit, designerdigitals.com; Fonts: Occidnetal and Nasty, downloaded from the internet, Garamond, Microsoft